Strange things....

When you feel incredibly happy, protected, loved and desired inside, but at the same time you feel awfully bad physically. And these two opposite and very strong feelings have fight inside you. Probably becouse of my constant positive-optimistic mood, under a pressure of terrible pain I was happy anyway.
Nice place, one hour far from Ankara, near 15 of us, with tents, barbecue, mountains, stars, stars, stars, 2 days.
First day started very well, some beer, in a bus, on the way, in the morning, made it`s positive impact :p. We arrived, unpacked. And everything was so pleasantly calm.Barbecue, games with a boll, where turned out, that i still have something girlis :) i throw a boll as every girl - funny and silly.
Then evening came with huge, unreal big full moon. Many-many stars......and we under the stars. I love this, you just lie, look into the star sky, looking for a constellations.......and feel like there is nothing and no one else in this world except of these place and you. And there is no time....Happiness
This evening outside, on a ground, under open sky brought it response....awful response. Next morning i was feeling so terrible as i didn`t feel for a long time! And all hurts....but heart doesn`t care about pain and temperature, heart is perfectly happy.
And I survived. Guys bought medicines for me, i take them hor 4 days already, antibiotics.
Tomorrow Izmir and sea and parties and fun.........but nooooo alcohol. Zaraza blin!
Shcheglyshka brought Slavytuch Bile, and i couldnt stay, and took a sip :)))))))))))))))))